I've never been good at consistency, so I'm having a hard time keeping up with my new eating habits. Which is leaving me feeling a bit inadequate. I know, I shouldn't. It's only been 5 months since surgery and I've lost a significant amount of weight. BUT I would have thought at this point, I wouldn't struggle so much with making positive food choices, eating slowly, portion sizes, going to the gym, and fighting off my prior bad habits. I do struggle, every day is a struggle. It's been harder lately than I thought it would be now that the "newness" has worn off. The pounds don't fall off as easily and the hard work is beginning (it's even harder now that I need a band fill). It's all a lot to process sometimes.
My 10cc band only has just a little over 1cc in it, so it makes the control aspect I'm looking for from it a little harder. When the tool I chose has such a wide range for effectiveness it's just frustrating. I know this band is a tool to be used for the positive. I know that. I guess I'm just going through some growing pains lately. I will wrap my head around it, I'm sure and come out successful. But I am struggling.
Don't get me wrong, I don't regret having the surgery. I'm glad I did it. I know it was the right decision. I just wish that I could snap my fingers and my mind set would change and I could have the dedication and consistency that so many people I know have. I'm not comparing, I'm just yearning for that gene :) On the flip side, it's only been 5 months and I've been making poor food choices my whole life, it's not like it can change over night and it will be trial and error throughout the process.
I'll get through this, I'm almost halfway to my goal weight-I just have to remember that...
